Good news!

Just got back from the recording studio and after a arduous ten hours we've come out with a Double A side single with bonus track! Fan-fucking-tastic!

I currently have it on repeat play. Loud! I'm expecting a call from the neighbours or police anytime now.

I love it when a plan comes together. Right time for some tea, bangers and mash me thinks. Smashing!

Back to the same old place

What I guess I'm trying to say is....I love you yeah short time we've been together but something seems to of clicked with me.
Even as I know I want to write that. I just feel I can't.
The problem is I can't really convay how I feel right now.

You ment, indeed as your intervention tonight (via txt message) has proven. You still mean a lot to me.

I , I just. please. I. Bolloxs reduced to tears......

I'm ment to be recording a single in seven hours dam it!

Single? How appropriate. Shit.

Stop being a selfish cunt!
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction - Newtons Third Law

I wonder if old Issac knew he was waxing philisophically when he wrote that.
It figures that something would give in my life, I was on to much of a high for it to stay that way indefinatly. I still do have a lot of good things. You focuse far too much on the shit that happens in your life to realise all the good stuff that is going on in it.
Like what?
Well for a start on Thursday your off to a recording studio to record your bands first single: Suffocate.
Your in a job that's pays nicely
Your still young.

I suppose that last ones one of the ones that gets me annoyed with life. Think about it. All though the really early years of your life and your teenage years your always moving onto something new, the next year at school, your first love, your first job, and so on.
In your early twentys like me you've done all that and have if your "lucky" like me have settled nicely into a job. A job that you'll be doing for the rest of your life, even if you change company.
The only thing you really have to look forward to is at this stage is getting a house, which is great! Smashing! A double edged sword if ever I saw one. It gives you a massive amount of freedom to live like you want. It's also a money sucking device that takes away the last chance you have of going out and meeting people. Arse. And yet its about time I got one. Bugger.

Yet another post where I was sure I had a point at the start but lost it somewhere. I think it was to stop being a miserable self pittying twat. I think it may of worked. I'll let you know

May as well go and eat worms....

When the hell are you going to finally realise that your about as well liked as the fat bloke whos been stuck in a hot sweaty office all day and gets into the already over crowded lift. Which causes it to excede it's weight limit and get stuck between floors. Then farts.

MORON!

You are such a fucking moron. really. what the hell did you think was gonna happen? did you think it'd play out like it did in your head the hundred times you ran the scenario through it? or are you just fucking stupid? i'm assuming the latter, since the former would imply that the last twenty-three years of your life have taught you nothing.

Did you think that your time together, however special, would mean anything?

You fucking twat.

Do you had some great times better than any in recent or even not-so-recent memory. so you thought you saw something. so you thought you knew her. so you thought you found someone you could relate to, someone that all "the signs" pointed toward being someone special.

So. Fucking. What.

It means nothing. nothing. can't you fucking understand that? for a year and a half. a year and a half, I kept you safe. I kept you out of harm's way. I kept you from getting stomped on again and again. No matter how many people came along and offered you the chance to get kicked in the teeth again, I kept you strong. I kept you from exposing yourself and getting stabbed in the fucking chest repeatedly. FOR A YEAR AND A HALF I kept you from doing something stupid. How do you repay me?

By doing something fucking stupid. By letting someone into your life and get near to you. They only want to be near to you so they can stab you in the fucking heart!

Obviously, I'm not getting through to you. So let me spell it out in nice, simple, easy-to-understand words that even your retarded brain can comprehend.

No one fucking wants you.

Is that clear enough, you fucking brain donor? is that ---

You know what? fuck this. I'm tired of talking. You never listen to me anyway. Fuck you, fuck your stupid, whiny-ass touchy-feely smeagol bullshit. I'm done with this. If you're not gonna fucking listen, then I'm just not gonna give you a god-damned choice. I'm just gonna fucking take over. That's the only way you'll ever learn.

You know the worst part? if you were magically sent back in time to the moment just before all this happened, you'd still have gone through with it. Even knowing how it would play out. You're just that fucking stupid.

you fucking moron.

Alone Once More

Heh I suppose it's mildly amusing that the first song that comes into my head is one of her old bands songs.