Todays late night self pitying drunk post is:
Lines and lines and lines

I do not own the exclusive right to be misserable.
I do not own the exclusive right to be misserable.
I do not own the exclusive rights to be miserable
I do not own the exclusive right s to be miserable.

Yeah that's right you don't. So get on with your sodding life!

In my Outlook task list at work, yeah Outlook I know but it's work so what can I do? I've just about managed to get them to implement firefox. Erm where was I are yes Outlook at work task list. In it for the past serveral months I've had the task: "Sort your fucking life out!" I'm just trying to work out when I'm going to get this done. Done? I haven't even bloody started it!

I'm just wondering why I always seem to stumble and fall at the first hurdle with relationships. Not just relationships with women, but relationships in general. I haven't really made any friends over recent years. The only friends I have are people I've known for years, even they didn't like me at first. It's only due to constantly being around me that they have been beaten into submission and finally seen my good points (I do have them, honest!). So the question is:

What the fuck is wrong with me!

Why do I seems to have this mental impass in my brain where by I can't get on with people when I first meet them. The problem being I try to make a good impression on people when I meet them so I'm not myself so I'm all awkward and weird so I put them off so they don't like me so I try not to be myself when I first meet people. It's a vicious circle.
Anyone trying to give me the advice the next time I meet a nice woman by saying "Just be yourself" Will be greeted with a sound kicking, especially if they add "but not too much" at the end again.

Shit it's one in the morning. Damn this insomnia. I'll still be awake at five, but best head off to bed anyway.